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[maleficafe]

"This is Lavender. Leave a message and I'll get back to you."

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Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

Mars: why not?

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

[lavender is typing... appears and disappears several times]

Lavender: It would be a problem.

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

Mars: whyyyyy?

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

Lavender: Things would get ugly. People might get hurt.
Lavender: I don't want to make LiliS go through that.
Lavender: Not even

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

[. . . did he miss something?]

Mars: what happened?

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

Lavender: I got into a fight with John.
Lavender: By the end of it I think he wanted to hurt me.
Lavender: If I still had my Craft, I know I would have hurt him.
Lavender: He thinks I'm
Lavender: I can't go back right now.
Lavender: So I'm staying away.
Lavender: Until I can figure out what to do.
Lavender: Or just

[lavender is typing...

lavender is typing...

nothing.]

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

[whoa]

Mars: i dunno
Mars: john seems like the type who is kind of a jerk?
Mars: maybe there was a misunderstanding?
Mars: you shouldn't have to stay somewhere else when lilis is your home

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

Lavender: I don't want to be the person that pushes him out.
Lavender: He wants to be here. He just hates me.
Lavender: Do you think I'd make a good hero?

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

Mars: we're not heroes over at heart
Mars: but do i think you'd be good with us?
Mars: yeah, i do
Mars: but before you look at that option
Mars: how the fuck could john hate someone like you?

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

Lavender: It's not like it's out of the blue.
Lavender: I haven't been good with him. Every time I've tried to reach out to him, I mess up and make things worse.
Lavender: And apparently he was trying to protect me and I didn't notice.
Lavender: Because at some point it just seemed hopeless and I stopped paying attention.
Lavender: He didn't want anyone in. He didn't want anyone to care about him.
Lavender: So he's punishing me for caring about him.
Lavender: He said really hurtful things about me.
Lavender: And I know he was wrong, but it doesn't matter as long as he believes it.
Lavender: I never should have tried to be friends with him in the first place.
Lavender: But I couldn't just ignore him.
Lavender: I wanted to be close. He reminds me so much of Amon.
Lavender: It's my fault for seeing someone else in him.
Lavender: How am I supposed to go back when I feel this way?
Lavender: I don't know what to do

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

[whoa whoa WHOA]

[SUDDEN RIGHTEOUS INDIGNATION]

Mars: punishing you for CARING about him???
Mars: you realize that makes HIM the asshole, not you, right??
Mars: if anyone should be kicked out of lilis it's him
Mars: for being a huge dick

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

Lavender: He's already in trouble with the Producers for avoiding and ignoring most of LiliS.
Lavender: So he was reaching out to try and make it better.
Lavender: And then he accused me of making it hard for him to reach out.
Lavender: Because I'd just sort of given up on him.
Lavender: It all kind of went downhill from there.

[...]

Lavender: If I tell you something, will you promise to keep it a secret?

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

Mars: that's HIS problem
Mars: not yours
Mars: you said you tried to reach out to him and that he didn't want you to care about him
Mars: he can't get angry at you for "making it hard to reach out" while also being angry at you for even trying in the first place

[. . .]

Mars: and sure
Mars: i promise

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

Lavender: That's what I thought, too.
Lavender: I'm thinking of finding somewhere in the city with no people and just staying there until I fade away.
Lavender: That way, when I try to come back, I can be on a different unit.
Lavender: And John won't have to deal with me.
Lavender: Maybe I can find Lily that way, too. I could bring him back.
Lavender: I know it seems bad but it's starting to sound like the best option.

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

[. . . . . . LAVENDER!!!]

Mars: do you know what i think you should do?

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

Lavender: What's that?

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

Mars: punch john in the face
Mars: tell him to sit the fuck down





Mars: and then make him a nice meal

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

Lavender: What if he's already sitting when I punch him?
Lavender: Should I practice punching? I'm not very good at it.

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

Mars: make him stand up just to sit down again
Mars: you can practice with me
Mars: i'm GREAT at punching

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

Lavender: Okay.
Lavender: Thanks, Mars.

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

Mars: anytime
Mars: just don't do the fading away thing
Mars: . . . okay?

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

Lavender: It'll be a last resort.
Lavender: I'll try everything I can first.

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

Mars: don't do it at all
Mars: it's a pretty dumb idea
Mars: i don't think you'd find lily that way
Mars: i think you'd just make the rest of your unit upset

Re: day 172, late morning

[maleficafe]

Lavender: I miss them already and it hasn't even been three days.
Lavender: I keep trying to think about what other unit I could be on but none of them sound right.
Lavender: sensitIV is nice but I don't think it suits me. The blood bathtub is really creepy, too.
Lavender: And I was joking earlier when I asked if I'd make a good hero. I know I wouldn't.
Lavender: I'm a villain, anyway. So maybe I should go ask ZRAEL.
Lavender: But even if it does suit me, I really just want to go home more than anything.

Re: day 172, late morning

[foolmetwice]

Mars: then go home
Mars: because that's where you belong